Everyone tries hard to live up their dream.

Dear self, I don't know how much the tears felt down, but most of them was pain which is telling around how much you fight but the destiny never been coming even until now. Sometimes, I forced my heart to understand what's the real thing needed by me. I walked around just to find something new where is I can learn much but I'd lost them. 

I know this feeling too hurt and I got this disappointment, so much. Dear self, we couldn't measure how the score of our surrender or how the best number for our fight, but we can estimate how and how, that we fought in. If sometimes, the world will reject your effort and deny your tears, don't worry, it doesn't mean you gonna die but it means God give you chance to be processed  by how the way you are in. Let it go, there are many ways that waiting and challenging yourself to fight in. Everyone tries hard to live up their dream, it same like you too. But not everyone will catch it easily and it same like you too. 

Don't worry, Allah always beside you. Keep writing your dream above the sky, keep praying, blow all the dreams into the God's hand, inshaAllah someday, when you wake up, you will amazed due of dreaming is really coming true into your sparkling eyes :)