I wish, there will never be "Once we were us" between me and you.

Samarinda, 27 Mars 2026

Dear my oldie soul,

Greetings to the memories that we've had at that time. Pieces to pieces, that shaped us until what we are today. Day to day, I celebrate my life, living well my dream with all the rest power left behind my back after meeting you. At that day until today, everything feels really sweet and romantic, I adore you and I adore my self after an unexpected encounter involving the two of us.

I don't own anything here, even your sweetest smiles. But, you're the human being that I ever prayed for since long time ago then God suddenly sent you when I was in my lost era. Praise on Him, for all the kindness and mercies He left since you are exist here.

I've been waiting you in my whole life. At least, our conversations are enough. 

The chance I got and lesson you've made up to me.

Your updates are my pills of happiness -- when everything feels hard, I come across to my phone screen, checking our funny conversations, thinking how you look when we meet, watching old video call that some of them I got recorded or silly pictures you've sent when I feel my day wasn't bright enough.

The fairness is nothing else here, that's why this place called only Dunya'.

But, half of my story finally begins, it happens when God aligned us.

To the day when we meet, even at that time I can't be yours or this story may end soon.

You must know, what's the happiest thing I have here is your existence.

Remember that if you are loved and cared. I'm happy to see you happy, your smile is my kind of spring, your laugh sounds like the forest whose sings to the quiet realms. Oh my blushing boy, oh my blushing boy -- I wish, there will never be "Once we were us" between me and you.

Until the day, marriage arranged and two lovebirds singing the chanting.

May Allah hear these words. He knows well if how much I'm praying for this boy.