I Don't Wanna Go Home

At the time who brings me to the down feeling of this exhausted years. The situation keep haunting me and dragged me to the shore. But no one care with this madness. I was screaming too loud but no one hear those soreness. I don’t wanna go home anymore, I want to go to another place where’s no one can hear my voice of sadness, where’s no one can see my suffer. I want to go to another place where’s no one will protest my sorrow, I want to go to another place where’s no one will claim my indulge. 

I feel alone in my own home, I’ve been isolating in my homeland. I have got the ways but no one see that ways, I have got the works but no one recognize that works, I have got the efforts but no one care that efforts. I’ve been asking many times to my mom and dad, but surely they never support what I think that they might supported me at every round time. There’s no one will hear these long twinge, my lung suddenly choked with the disenchantment, an awful confession turned me into the long depression. 

I might hate this life and decide to leave all of the memories here, with no one pride that I will bring it. I disagree the tasted of how to be in love with every passionate of this fucking life. I’m so sorry For Mom and Dad, I hate my self seriously and I don’t wanna be there at home with your daily merciless smile. All of these disappointment about life, my ups and downs of being alive, I don’t feel how the taste of being alive as human anymore. 

So I will quit all of the ambition and will leave it here, under your own subconscious, with the harmful pride. Thank you from my own heart, thank you for destroy my dream and let me build it in another place where there’s no one person will break me down to this unbreakable feeling. If someday I get the cure and healing verdicted, after remarking my self and settle this emotion, I will come back and I will hug you, tightly with these millions tears. I’m so sorry for being an extreme hazardous girl.